things here, things there

words words words. the more i try to learn german the more i am aware of my speaking and so the less i am able to speak it. it even effects my english. i need a break from words.

For the sake of an update

The careful alchemy required in the conscious convergence of two worlds should not be underestimated, especially when both elements being brought together are places and people to which (and to whom) one is deeply attached— and moreover the meeting of the various parts is an event on which one has preparatorily bestowed great emotional significance and expectation. Such a mixture can almost only lead to disappointing results, but a merely peaceful though unsatisfactory anticlimax may be preferable to chemically explosive.
Those who are on the move, or have moved, should especially know what I mean by two worlds. there is, or ought to have been, some break between the few years leading up to last may, the vague summer following and the Now and To Be that follows, i.e. that Rest of Your Life that we were to have been preparing for (been prepared for) and have now entered, however much we may have stumbled on the stepping in, or caught our oversized shoulderside against the doorframe.
the one world is inhabited by people we know well, some too well, whose faces we see in passing, arbitrarily or like clockwork, in meeting, parting, moving or in waking in the morning. and then there is the New. where we savor (or fear) the unfamiliar that surrounds us, are stimulated by the novelty and possibility, or made hesitant by the sudden absence of safety and soft familiar hands, voices, thoughts.
both realms having their individual momentum, is a meeting necessarily a collision?